At my job, I’ve been doing a lot of sanitizing and temperature taking. Part of my uniform includes a smock, face shield, face mask, and rubber gloves. If we didn’t have these precautions, I would not have been able to work in-person at The Bridge Teen Center. COVID-19 has made us rethink how we host student programs. Prior to the pandemic, The Bridge offered drop-in hours for students and hosted signature events that could have accommodated hundreds of students. Now students must pre-register for events which have limited capacity. They are required to wear masks, wash their hands before entering the building, get their temperature taken, and answer a few questions about their health. In the program, students must sit six feet apart from each other and cannot share materials. At first, it was an adjustment. Not only did students have to learn a new routine, but they also had to navigate social situations under these conditions. It’s hard to hear people and see their facial expressions when others are wearing a mask, so it’s easy to minimize conversation. With time, we all learned to adapt to this new environment. Considering these extra precautions, I’m still able to create connections between students. Everything feels as normal as it can be during this time.

In one of the CAPS Reflect-Ins, we read the poem, “A Bed for the Night” by Bertolt Brecht. It was about a man that collected beds for the homeless on the snowy streets of New York. While he was doing a charitable deed, the poem reiterated that his actions wouldn’t change the world. This poem made me think of the concept of “intern work.” Classically, people imagine the intern as the person that gets coffee for the office. It’s the kind of work that anybody can do, but nobody wants to do it. Adjectives to describe “intern work” could be boring, unimportant, or tedious. Why is there such a negative stereotype?

We all have moments where we have to do something that’s less than glamorous. Let’s use taking out the trash as an example. I’m not “above” taking out the trash, but it’s not the most exciting thing in the world. Nevertheless, it must be done. If nobody does it, the place won’t be clean. As someone that likes to work in a clean office, I’ll do whatever it takes to contribute to that cause. If that requires taking out the trash, then I am happy to do it!

Even though I have a positive attitude about taking out the trash, I can still admit that it’s not going to fulfill my soul. It’s not a sign of ingratitude to acknowledge that a task does not fuel your passion nor help you discover something new about yourself. You’re just being honest about your feelings. It can be hard to look at the big picture when we can’t see the fruits of our labor in real time, but I have to remind myself that these small tasks, like cleaning the facility, will create a space for those larger opportunities that make me feel fulfilled.

I think part of our identity is wrapped up in our job and our self-esteem is heavily tied to our merits. If we think our work is boring, we imagine ourselves as boring. If we perceive our work as impactful and meaningful, we envision ourselves that way, too. When we see other people doing impressive and grandiose things, it can be easy to question ourselves than to celebrate others.

Value can be found in the smallest of jobs. At work, we often joke that the person taking temperatures is the “sanitization specialist.” The job sounds a lot cooler when you give it a fancy title, but does that change the nature of the task? Not necessarily. So how can we rethink the narrative of intern work? First, recognize the chain reaction that comes with doing a small task. If someone doesn’t do X, this could prevent someone from doing Y. Second, identify how you can develop long term skills from a task. Our director Katie gave the great example that getting coffee is an opportunity to network with employees. Finally, do some self-reflection whenever these feelings arise. Complaining about work does not mean you’re being ungrateful, but it is still important to figure out what’s going on inside. If your ego is tied to your merits or you catch yourself comparing yourself to someone else, remind yourself that work is not the only place where you can derive your sense of self-worth.