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Author: Allie Sauber (page 1 of 2)

Farewell

T.S. Eliot once said, “It’s strange that words are so inadequate.”  And in the conclusion of this semester, this couldn’t be more true.

As the past few days have consisted of much meditation and profound reflection on this semester, it seems invariable that the word to characterize the end of all of this is, of course, bittersweet.  As is expected, the past four months have brought so many positive changes in me that I intend on letting transcend into my life back in America.  Since all posts leading up to this one allude to such changes, it seems the most beautiful way to conclude this semester is through the use of photos.

September, 2010

October, 2010

November, 2010

December, 2010

Here’s to this semester and all the changes it brought.  What a beautiful time: what was, and is to come.

Peace in Silence

“Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.”

Last week A.J. and I traveled to Edinburgh, Scotland to spend Thanksgiving with his dad and sister.  It was a lovely few days with them, sharing hugs, smiles, laughter, wine, and, of course, Whisky.  Not only were he and I blessed to be with family on Thanksgiving, but the four of us shared in the first snowfall of the season.  I always seem to forget how magical that first snowfall really is, marking the beginning of a joyful Christmas season.

Our winter white invite to Edinburgh

Throughout the duration of our trip, I couldn’t quite place my finger on why it is I loved that first snowfall so much.  In any given year, I’m ready to say goodbye to winter the first time the temperature drops below forty degrees.  But, this year, it is different.  Pleasantly different.

After some stressful and seemingly treacherous driving conditions due to the snow while in Scotland, I expected myself to resent the snow that greeted me upon my return to Reutlingen.  Yet, as I write this blog, I am staring out at the snowy mountains and find it more beautiful than ever before.  It’s been an unusually quiet weekend here in Reutlingen, so quiet, in fact, that as I look out my window it’s as if I can actually see the silence.  The silence of Winter that usually causes me such restlessness has now transformed into peacefulness.

While it is probable that I am welcoming winter with such warmth because that means home is now near, I’d like to think that it’s a result of this semester’s learned lessons.  The past four months have led me to find the beauty in almost anything.  In silence, peace.  In longing, hope.  And in affliction, faith.  And so I’m left where I started:

“Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.” (The Desiderata Poem)

Eat, Pray, Love

An excerpt in the book, “Eat, Pray, Love” spoke to me as it perfectly articulated the feelings one experiences while traveling abroad:

“The great Sufi poet and philosopher, Rumi, once advised his students to write down the three things they wanted most in life.  If any item on the list clashes with any other item, Rumi warned, you are destined for unhappiness.  Better to live a life of single-pointed focus, he taught.  But what about the benefits of living harmoniously amid extremes?  What if you could somehow create an expansive enough life that you could synchronize seemingly incongruous opposites into a worldview that excludes nothing?  […] I wanted to experience both.  I wanted worldly enjoyment and divine transcendence–the dual glories of a human life.”

I couldn’t agree with Elizabeth Gilbert more.  Her ability to articulate such a harmonious desire was something I have been trying to articulate all along.  It seems as though I have experienced everything from Paris’ indulgences, to Rome’s spirituality, to Budapest’s musicality.  All of these extremely diverse countries have offered me something so unique.  Reflecting on that very passage, I have been blessed with that very gift over the course of the past few months: worldly enjoyment and divine transcendence.

As for Hungary, my skepticism about traveling on an eleven-hour night train to an eastern European country for five days was present on my mind for several days leading up to the trip.  As Hungary greeted me with a cold and rainy day, my perception of the country was at its best, different.  It wasn’t until the following days that I approached Budapest with a more open and forgiving mind.  Learning about their communist past and there ever improving future reminded me of a similar lesson I had learned in Berlin: one can never forget a past, whether pleasant or not, that ultimately led to a successful future.

Hungary’s Most Famous Opera House

After warming up to the diverse Hungary, I was eager to appreciate more that was unique to their culture.  So, last night we went to a Hungarian Opera.  This Opera house was the most beautiful venue I have ever seen–its elegance begged me to imagine myself attending this place in the early years, adorned in a beautiful gown and tight curls.  Although the latter description wasn’t true, we had an absolutely lovely evening.  The Italian opera, Rigoletto, portrays the flirtatious, seductive nature of love and the curses between men because of such love.  Despite our inability to understand the opera (as it was sung in Italian and the subtitles were in Hungarian), it was a phenomenal night I will never forget.

Hungary’s Most Famous Opera House

Different Dispositions, Same Sensitivities

Maya Angelou once said, “Perhaps travel cannot prevent bigotry, but by demonstrating that all peoples cry, laugh, eat, worry, and die, it can introduce the idea that if we try and understand each other, we may even become friends.”

This quote really resonates with me.  While I haven’t necessarily made any lasting friendships with those of other countries, the traveling, keen observation, and friendly small-talk that has taken place has been sufficient enough to demonstrate that we truly are all innately the same.

On the train to Venice, I was sitting across from a mother who was with her one-year-old child.

View of Italy from train

I remember not being able to take my eyes off of that precious being, as any smile she made inevitably became one that light up my face, too.  How can one not smile at a smiling baby?  However, the affection, love, and gracious attention that the mother gave her child was what touched me the most.  For, it was apparent to me that a mother’s love is the same regardless of geographical location.  While the outward demeanor of an Italian woman is different from that of an American’s, the inward sensitivities that exist are ultimately the same.  Both women have the same profound, immeasurable, and unmatched love for their children.  Although this may seem like an obvious observation, it was a heart-warming moment for me, as I am starting to miss that very same love.  Although suddenly, that specific love wasn’t so absent anymore.

Dinner in Tubingen

Dinner in Tubingen

Dinner in Tubingen

Another observance of a similar love has been one that is romantic in nature.  It seems that in every city I’ve visited, there is love expressed between couples quite outwardly.  Whether it’s straddling the loved one or french kissing for minutes on end in a popular park, their expression of love toward one another lacks shame and modesty.  While that kind of overt public display of affection is generally unacceptable in America, there is something boldlyinspiring about the sight of those young, passionate lovers caressing one another.  I do not mean to say that those are appropriate gestures for my life (because they’re not), but their affectionate audacity is ultimately a lovely proclamation of their love. Although the love I share with my loved one is more private in nature, it’s fulfilling to see that same inner passion existing in all the world.

Though the differences between my life in American and my life in Germany are endless, one thing has remained beautifully stable: we are all blessed with the same sensitivities, whether it is between a mother and her child or two lovers.

We Shape the World, yet Sometimes It Shapes Us

With a little over a month remaining, I can’t help but to begin reflecting on what impact the past three months have left on my life.

The importance of being in touch with oneself has never been more evident.  Being thousands of miles away from everything familiar, including people, language, cuisine, and culture, inevitably leaves one with a plethora of emotions.  And at times, seemingly contradictory ones.  It is at these times it becomes increasingly important to examine yourself both objectively and unbiasedly.  For some, this may mean ten minutes of a sort of mental regrouping, and for others, a few hours.  Regardless of which category you fall under, it is important that such emotional conflict is both expected, and pleasantly dealt with.  For, from strife results perseverance.

Those very moments are the ones that stand out to me the most: those moments of profound realization about the beautiful creation existing around me, and my place and view within it all.  A few such realizations for me are as follows:

Just a few days before departing for France, heightened strike alerts began saturating the news.  With my mom and sister forty-eight hours away from departing Chicago, I remember having a profound spirit of condemnation toward France, for if their juvenile manifestations resulted in my sister and mom not making it to Paris, I would be quite bitter, to say the least.  However, I realized that I hadn’t even taken the time to understand what was

First time seeing the Eiffel Tower

causing the French manifestations .  After realizing that the French government wanted to raise the retirement age from sixty to sixty-two, I had little sympathy for them, seeing as the retirement age in America is much higher than that.  However, in all of this mess, it was clear to me that all things in this world are relative.  While to us, the retirement age of sixty-two is substantially low, to them, that is two more years of a lifestyle they neither expected nor value as much as Americans.  One cannot place judgment on a culture they are not a part of, and instead should realize that all of life’s circumstances are just that: circumstantial.  It is my challenge to you to seek understanding when you find yourself in a frustrating situation, for a discerning heart is most always answered.

On a more personal note, I experienced a deep understanding and admiration for Catholicism.  While I myself am not Catholic, being immersed in Rome’s deep Catholic history was enlightening.  As I mentioned in my blog about Rome, it is undeniable the devout nature the Catholics have historically shown throughout time.  Going beyond my genuine acceptance of the Catholic religion, is my acceptance for all inhabitants of this earth, religious or atheist, Italian or American.  For, judgement, whether it is toward a specific culture, religion, or origin, should not hold a place in our hearts.

In front of St. Peter’s basilica

Our purpose on this earth is not to inflict more animosity, but to calm it.  The calming of such animosity begins with oneself.  It’s obvious, then, that Mahatma Gandhi has had it right all along: “be the change you want to see in the world.”

In both of these examples of some of the realizations I have experienced, the concept of knowledge is at hand.  For, both situations required a sort of understanding that I didn’t have prior to experiencing them.  I have always considered myself a lover of academics, an individual who enjoys studying, succeeding, and admittedly, over-achieving, but, up until this point, I hadn’t sought much knowledge outside of my academic studies.  I immersed myself in whatever subjects I was taking that semester, and any free time I had was spent taking a break from all of the knowledge I was busy learning during the week.  However, since these experiences, I have found myself researching politics and theology during my free time.  It is my hope that these learned lessons will be applied not only for the remainder of the trip, but upon my return to normalcy in America.

Always growing together (Innsbruck, Austria)

I leave you with the challenge to possess both a discerning and accepting heart.  You’ll be surprised how it transcends into all other areas of your life.

Lovely Venice

Venice, Italy, in all its serene glamour, was the perfect place to celebrate five beautiful years.  However, as I’m reflecting on our time, I am finding myself at a loss of words in my attempt to recreate our celebration.  For, as our concierge at our hotel alluded to, there is truly no arrangement of words to merit the wonder of Venice.

So, I thought I would let the pictures speak for themselves:

View from the gondola

Beautiful Venice homes

View from our hotel window

Venice sunset

Piazzo San Marco

Celebrating five years

Our anniversary dinner: http://www.centrale-lounge.com/

Our hotel: http://www.abbaziahotel.com/de/

Truman Capote said it most succinctly: “Venice is like eating an entire box of chocolate liqueurs in one go.”

La Uascezze in Bari

After a long, yet entirely fulfilling three days in Rome, A.J. and I traveled to the coast of Italy in Bari.  Anxious to spend the next two days in a city neither of us knew much about, we settled in quickly, courtesy of a phenomenal accommodation and an even more phenomenal dinner on the evening of our arrival.

After lugging around our suitcases for nearly forty minutes, we finally reached a quaint looking area of Bari that we hoped we would be able to call “home” for the next few days.  Upon arriving at the restaurant where we were to check in, genuine happiness began to radiate throughout our faces.  For, the enticing atmosphere begged for our eager and hungry presence.  We told the refined Italian man who owned both the bed and breakfast and the restaurant that we would see him in a few minutes to dine after we were settled.

He walked us to the room where we would be staying with such poise. Treating us as if we were far more than two seemingly young people in love, he made sure to walk us through the room, turning on every light as if to show us his respect and confidence in the bed and breakfast.  After shaking hands, we bid him farewell.  Well, at least for a couple of minutes.

A.J. and I then headed to his restaurant to indulge in a delicious meal with him not only because we were so pleased with his bed and breakfast, but because we were such a state of desire for a good, hearty Italian meal.  It was refreshing to see that he was just as happy to see us again as we were happy to see him.  He sat us at an elegant table for two as he lit a candle and placed it in the center.  After choosing a bottle of wine, he poured it with such elegance and ease, allowing A.J. to have a sip of satisfaction before pouring the rest.  After he was done with his artistic presentation of the wine, he told us that he wanted to treat us to his favorite hors d’oeuvres while our only job would be to tell him when we were pleasantly fulfilled.

Starting off with a bowl of fresh, pitted olives, it didn’t take long before we realized what a perfect pairing it was with the wine.  Following the olives came homemade breadsticks, a delicious and flavorful plate of antipasta, fresh bruschetta, a perfectly designed cheese and meat platter, and a well-seasoned bowl of Italian nuts.  After most every plate was devoid of most all food remnants, dessert was soon to be on its way.  The warm, rich molten cake combined with the cold, creamy hazelnut cake ultimately resulted in the best combination of a dessert delicacy.

Even after five years, A.J. and I agree that that very evening marked one of the best we’ve shared together thus far.  Although several years have come and gone, it is encouraging to know that it is the simple things that allow such a unique happiness to occur.  The most memorable life moments don’t always have to be characterized by romantic,

elegant evenings in Paris or Rome, they can exist in a small, nostalgically attractive place where it seems that nobody else in the world exists but the two of you.

For more information on La Uascezze Bed and Breakfast in Bari, Italy visit: http://www.lauascezze.com/

When in Rome

It didn’t take long after setting foot in “Rome Termini” to grasp what lies beneath the famous saying, “When in Rome.”  From its history to its elegance to its profound spirituality, Rome has something to offer for the intellect, the disciple, and the sophisticated alike.  After arriving in Rome on the evening of October twenty-third, sipping on wine while overlooking the Colosseum was seemingly appropriate after a long day of travel.

The following day being Sunday, we had the opportunity to receive a blessing from the Pope.  Walking to Vatican City that Sunday morning with a pastry in hand,  I wasn’t quite sure what to expect.  As St. Peter’s Square was finally in sight, I was amazed at the number of people who were present for this spiritual occasion.

Not only was this presence encouraging, but the diversity yet unity among them was pleasantly refreshing.  For, despite the various nationalities, the Pope addressed each with the same grace as the next.

It is beautifully obvious that the spirituality of Rome is one of its most prominent characteristics.  Despite your religious beliefs, one cannot deny the serene presence that exists every Sunday at noon among St. Peter’s Square.

Yet, while Rome invites such a spiritual presence, it also begs for the intellect’s perception.  Our last day in Rome consisted of a walking tour of The Vatican City.  The walls of the Vatican are full of famous paintings, depicting both religious and pagan ideas.   In fact, some of the walls within the Vatican are covered with a dark cloth so as not to expose the sexually explicit nature of the paintings.  The intellect can embrace the insight, technique, and philosophy the painters used to depict such scenes, regardless of the religious intention behind it.

While these historical and spiritual themes in Rome remain her most prominent quality, the elegance and class that the city possesses is undeniably present.  For instance, my walking into a boutique for an effortless hair trim and eyebrow wax, ultimately ended in my walking out with slightly less hair and a lot less money.  Specifically, one hundred Euro less.

And now I see.  This is what they mean when they say “When in Rome.”

Paris: A City and Weekend of Love

Being in the city of love with the man I love, my sister, and my mother was an incredible blessing.  Though it may sound cliche, I realized this weekend just how important it is to have love as such a prominent part of one’s life.  Whether the love is romantic in nature or not, it is to be pursued as a verb, not just a noun.

I really lived that out this weekend–whether it was kissing A.J. on the cheek at the Eiffel Tower,

or holding onto my sister’s beautiful face,

or holding my beloved mother in my arms,

I made sure to love with a pure and Godly passion.

Our lovely itinerary for the weekend went as follows:

Thursday, October 14

-Walked up to Sacré-Coeur Basilica for a beautiful view of Paris

– Walked down to Moulin Rouge

-Ate at gorgeous Café for dinner, French wine, and dessert

-Headed back to The Crowne Point Plaza Hotel for some shut-eye (Compliments of A.J.’s generous, loving Dad)

Friday, October 15

-Slept in

-Headed to Le Petit Pont for croque monsieurs, croissants, and tea

-Walked one block to Notre Dame Cathedral

-Walked to the Musée du Louvre where we spent two phenomenal hours

-Headed back to Le Petit Pont for more French wine

-Dined with the group, courtesy of the program

-Indulged in créme brulée and mimosas

Saturday, October 16

-Breakfast at hotel

-Walked to L’Arc de Triomphe

-Walked down the Champes d’Elysee

-Walked to a boulangerie and ordered pastries and a baguette, to-go

-Made our way to La Tour Eiffel while eating baguette (wishes of my sister)

-Saw La Tour Eiffel, let its beauty speak to each of us, and documented our presence

-When the rain began, we headed to a café for some wine, cheese, and pastries

-Met our French friend, Cyrille, for drinks at another café overlooking the La Tour Eiffel

Sunday, October 17

-Had our last breakfast together

-Exchanged loving hugs and kisses with my mom and sister as we bid them farewell

Whether you are in the city of love or in your familiar hometown, it is so important to love.  Not the noun, the verb.

España Extravaganza

There have been times in my life where I claim to have “a bad feeling about a certain situation”.  While that feeling proves to be true at some times, other times it is clearly my emotions getting the best of me.  This time, however, my “bad feeling about a certain situation” became true.

I knew when we booked it that it was too good to be true.  As soon as we had booked the apartment, we had found out from Amy and John that they wouldn’t be arriving until Friday.  After looking back at our email exchanges, we realized that neither party had clearly articulated nor settled on any dates.  Quite unfortunately, we had booked the apartment for six people for Thursday-Sunday, when only six people would be there Friday-Sunday.   While it wasn’t the most encouraging beginning to our first trip outside of Germany, we nonetheless had high hopes for the weekend to come.

The apartment located near Las Ramblas on La Calle de Mata appeared a phenomenal place and a great price according to the website.  Upon our arrival, however, there were many obstacles inhibiting such satisfaction.  We arrived at the apartment at approximately 20:00 only to find that Francisco, the man renting the apartment, wasn’t present.  Thankfully, we had the confirmation email at hand, which indicated very clearly that both parties knew what time our arrival to the apartment would be.  So, we waited patiently but admittedly quite anxiously for Francisco to arrive.  When he didn’t arrive after nearly forty minutes, we began to worry.  We called his phone, but no avail.  Naturally, I began praying, and just as I was doing so, an individual was entering the apartment complex.  I knew that my Spanish would have to pull through if we wanted a place to stay that night.  And it did, but barely.  So, in a seemingly frantic state, I spoke quickly and brokenly:

“Losientopero,nosotrossomosextranjerosytenemosunareservaciónparaeste  cuartoenesteapartamento.  PerounhombrequesellamaFransisconoestáquiyentoncesnotenemosllave!!”

Which, in clear and concise English would translate as:

I’m sorry, but we are travelers and we have a reservation for a room in this apartment.  However, a man by the name of Francisco isn’t here and as a result, we don’t have the key.

After gathering how upset and panicked we were all becoming, he looked at the reservation confirmation email we had printed out and called Francisco on his phone.  The man spoke in abrasive Spanish to Francisco, telling him how he has left four Americans extremely distressed due to his inability to arrive on time and that he should get here as soon as possible.  Me being the only one who was able to understand him, I was glad to report to the group that Francisco would be arriving in just fifteen minutes.  We named this angel friend of ours, “Angelo”.

When Francisco arrives, he apologizes in a manipulative sort of way.  After signing a few contracts, deciding on a check-out time, and discussing rules and regulations of the apartment, he asks for the 6oo euro in cash we owe him for the weekend.  Surprised at his request, we seek the email confirmation to find that the credit card was indeed supposed to be charged, for the only money he had told us to bring was the 200-euro deposit that we would receive back upon checking out of the apartment.  Regardless, we dish out 600 euro and remain in the apartment that night, completely broke.  Tired and exhausted from a day of traveling, we decide to leave the trip to the ATM for the following day.

The next morning, Cate and I woke up early to make breakfast for the boys. After all, we all were in need of a pleasant morning after a seemingly unpleasant evening.  After breakfast, we realized that we didn’t know the arrival time of Amy and John.  We instantly became frustrated with ourselves once again due to the lack of communication between the six of us. Do they know the address? Are they coming straight to the apartment?  Should we stay here all day until they get here? With various questions lying so heavily upon our hearts, I knew that the only thing we could really do was wait.  We remained in the apartment for the majority of the afternoon until they arrived.  When the door buzzed, I jumped with excitement and opened the door.  To my surprise, the first person I saw was Angelo!  How ironic, he had saved Amy and John as they too, frantically looked for the apartment.  After learning that he looked at them and said “Are you with the four frantic American travelers?” we decided that Angelo really was the perfect name for him.

That evening we decided to take a walk down to the Mediterranean coast and enjoy some healing after a stressful twenty-four hours of traveling for all of us.  After all, there’s nothing the beach and some sangria can’t fix!

After an afternoon of walking around and sightseeing, we headed back to the apartment to shower and socialize before experiencing Barcelona’s nightlife.  We left the apartment at about 12:00 a.m., and it wasn’t twenty minutes after we left until we realized we only had one key.  After some group brainstorming about where the other key could be, we remembered that the last time we saw it was in the keyhole on the inside of the apartment door.  As we had expected, you cannot unlock a door with the key on the inside of the same door.  We were determined to have a place to sleep that night, so prying the key into the hole seemed logical and productive, but our persistent efforts ended in a broken key.  Perfect, now we were not only out a room, but we were out a key, too.  We sat on the floor of the foyer of the apartment and tried to have as good an attitude as we could, given our situation.  Alas, we decided that humor was the only way to remedy the situation.  Cate, Amy, and I began creating sentences, each saying one word contributing to the sentence.  And naturally, our first sentence began,

Cate: Where

Allie: is

Amy: Angelo?”

We call the manager of the apartment complex, who arrives in a fairly calm manner for a 12:30 a.m. phone call, and after his failed attempt at opening the door, he informs us that it will be 120 euro for a locksmith.  Having no other choice but to follow through, we hang our heads in shame for our lack of responsibility.  When the locksmith arrives, he takes out what looks to be a piece of paper, spends about thirty seconds moving it in and out between the door and the wall, and opens the door.  We are paying 120 euro for that?! We were appalled, to say the least.

After we got inside, we decided that that was enough for one day, and we all went directly to bed.  The next morning being Amy’s birthday, the boys woke up early to make some stuffed French toast for the girls.  After a delightful breakfast, we headed down to the Mediterranean again, but this time, to swim.

It was beyond freeing to act like ten-year-olds again, playing in the water and laughing without a care in the world.  It was just what we needed after a stressful night.  The rest of the afternoon was spent renting bikes and riding them around Barcelona, letting the sea breeze run through our sandy, salty hair.

After a shower and some freshening up, we went downtown Barsa to celebrate Amy’s birthday with Sangria and a dance club.

After exhausting our time at the dance club, we left at about 2:30 a.m. to a stormy and windy walk back to the apartment.  So there we were, three wet, American girls walking alone from a club in Barcelona at 2:30 a.m.  We were soon to learn that this wasn’t the best idea.

At first, we were enjoying the stormy walk along the beach, but soon realized our safety was questionable.  So, we decided to ditch the beach and walk along a road, only to find that our safety would be even more jeopardized.  We were walking cautiously down the street as we saw two males on the corner, who began walking toward us.  Trying to remain calm and think optimistically, we cross to the opposite side of the street, only to find that they did the same.  After realizing how dangerous of a situation we were getting ourselves into, we decided to turn around and speed up some, but not too much so as not to inform them of our anxiety (for that would make us even more vulnerable).  When they started speeding up, we began feeling frantic and helpless.  We knew that they were no longer causally approaching us, but coming after us.  So, I grab Amy’s hand and say, “Say a prayer with me”.  After asking for God’s peace and calamity, we turned around to find them to have disappeared.  We looked again behind us again, just in case our eyes had deceived themselves, but our prayer was answered: they truly were nowhere in sight.  After our hearts settled a bit, we decided to run into a bar where I asked someone, once again my now practiced frantic Spanish, if he would be so kind as to call a taxi for us.  I don’t think anyone could have looked at us and not succumbed to that request that night.  We were soaked in what were once cute dresses, head to toe, with dripping mascara, squeaky shoes, and tears.  That man was yet another angel that surely God had sent our way.  Arriving back to the apartment at approximately 3:30 a.m., we rang the doorbell to find a stressed but relieved boyfriend and Andrew, happy to have us back.  We all had to leave the apartment at 6:00 a.m. to catch a flight to Milan, so the two and a half hours of sleep ahead of us were crucial.

The RyanAir flight from Barcelona to Milan, Italy (strange, I know, but it was the cheapest way to go) was the most nerve-wracking flight I have ever experienced.  The airline lacks a consumer focus in countless ways and obviously had no intention of putting their customers at ease.  From the angry woman checking the size of the carry-ons to the extremely unhappy flight attendants to the intense turbulence, I was beginning to experience a state of passionate anxiety.  In fact, my anxiety became so profound that I admit I had my first anxiety attack mid-air to Milan.  Never experiencing something like this in my life, I held on tightly to my boyfriend’s hand on the right and Cate’s hand on the left as both of them rubbed my hand and reassured me that they each had experienced worse turbulence before.  After twenty minutes, they began to calm my restless heart and broken spirit.  I had never lost control of my emotions like that in my life, but felt blessed that I was able to recover.  When RyanAir landed, a trumpet sounded over the intercom as if to say “RyanAir landed yet another aircraft–it’s a miracle!”  Let’s just say I have never been happier to ride for seven hours on a train.

After a (barely) successful flight, I was relieved at the thought that the anxiety of the trip was coming to a close.  Of course, that thought was fleeting as Andrew realized he left his wallet on the bus that we took from Milan Airport to the Milan Bus Station.  After miraculously figuring out how he was going to retrieve it, he sent us on our way to the train we had reservations for and reassured us that he would be catching the later one.  Confident in his ability to travel, we went ahead and got on the train.  After finding that our reserved seats were occupied.  They then pointed out that the reservation was for Saturday, not Sunday.  Astonished at the fact that yet another thing had gone wrong, we began to lose faith in the likelihood of us returning to Reutlingen that night.  After much confusion and yelling of the Italian conductors, another angel was soon to come our way.

A man who was sitting with his wife and three kids handed us his reservations for dinner on the train.  Relieved but emotional at the presence of his generosity, we could do nothing but place our hand over our hearts and repeat “thank you so much” over and over.  Finally, our hearts could be at rest.

After an extremely stressful weekend, and stress that continued even into today, I knew that I needed to turn to God’s word for some reconciliation.  I find myself in peace as I was led to my faith journal in which I wrote this summer:

Worry implies that we don’t quite trust that God is big enough, powerful enough, or loving enough to take care of what’s happening.  Stress says that the things we are involved in are important enough to merit our impatience, our lack of grace toward others, or our tight grip of control.

So, I’m faithful in the trips to come.

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